I feel like I'm getting back into my funk. A little more each day. I'm doing better and better. It's a gadual thing. Probably not noticed by most. But I've been studying just a little bit more, cleaning just a little bit more, and definately taking better care of myself. Time passes fast and I'm over the ten month mark. Soon I'll be gone. I honestly hope time goes fast. You shouldn't wish away time, but things will be better for me when I have more freedom. I am enjoying the time I have here, thankfully. I've made a new friend. I'm reading a new series of books. I've discovered wat field of architecture I'll probably specialize in. I still don't know what I want to do after college. I want to join a organization that helps people. I just don't know what kind. Well I've got quite a few more years to figure that out.To draw this to a conclusion I'm simply feeling better about myself. Feeling smarter. Reading more. And I hope you do the same.

I am being raised adjacent to an Amish community. Well they're not quite Amish but that's a story for another time. From an early age my parents choose to follow most of their traditions. Including only 8 years of schooling. Loving school as I do I found that tragic and asked to continue. That didn't happen. So here I am about two and a half years later trying to prepare myself to get a GED and go to college. Studying material for the SAT doesn't seem to be hard, but I've only done the first chapter or so how would I know. On the other hand the GED material is boring, tedious, and aggrevatingly planned. I mean really, they're trying to educate people who for the most part didn't have motivation in the first place. On this journey of learning I have many miles of space left to travel. But in the end I think it'll OK. I'm a smart person. And I finally think I've found my way out of the laborinth I was wandering. It's not about all those people getting you down. It's about you. Your life. Right now they may be controlling large pieces of it, but you can still find joy. You can still make the most of what you have. Relish that fact that someday you can do whatever you want. Make that happen!!!

Daily Blog?

I used to only use this blog to publish my poetry, but I think it would be fun to write a daily blog. Social media can be good creative outets. I find them inspiring 'cause of the feedback. I find it very motivational when people give me feedback. For a long time now I've found it hard to write. I think that's because of the state my life is in. Not too much fun, not too much excitement. Not much of anything for that matter. I used to watch TV shows for hours. Lie in bed and not do much of anyting. I wanted to go to college so bad. I wanted to do things and go places, but I wasn't allowed. Recently some very good things have happened to me. I now have a reason to hope. And I've started to draw and do way more stuff. Things aren't peachy, but they're way better. /