Honest Blog

         So hi guys yesterday was my birthday. And today's the 18th. I've had a really good week so far. I honestly think one of the best days was orientation.
         I've been thinking a lot about my future and I kinda realize I need to chill out. I've really been stressing myself out and the was never the point of this whole social media thing. It was to record, and put enjoyable, and maybe beautiful content out into the world. Like maybe my tumblr. But that doesn't mean I want to be on every single day and I got to let things chill. Maybe in all areas of my life. Maybe not all of them. In some I probably need to stand up for myself. Anyway I got my phone and downloaded some new apps. I really like how easy it is to video stuff on there and I may be doing a lot of that.
        Anyway I really look to forward to this college thing. I really like it there and I look forward to my life when I get out.
        So I guess all in all this really isn't a sad blog. Last year I really let this emotions get a handle on me and I made my myself miserable. My problems may be weird but that doesn't mean I shouldn't get a handle on them.
        I really enjoyed orientation though. After I got home and got my time to think about it I was really happy. So I guess this is just an honest blog. I'm not doing badly at all, I guess I'm just working out some things. At the end the of the day maybe its choosing to be happy about the small things until you can figure out the bigger things... So long--

                                                                                                      INDICA
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Little Update/Next Week Will Be Great

           Hi. Good afternoon. So I feel like this week my life begins. While I still don't feel quite right, I've got a lot going on. Tomorrow my phone's finally coming. The 16th is orientation and the 17th is my birthday. That's right I finally got into school! I'm gonna study drafting/CAD.
          Oh and here's Music Monday in advance:

         So I think I'm gonna be feeling a lot happier. At least I'm gonna have a lot more to do. And I feel really really good about the choice I've made :) So long--
                                                                                                  INDICA
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Music Monday

             So it's definitely not Music Monday but here's some music anyway.
             So I guess I'm living with mixed feelings. Anyway right now I feel really happy. Sometimes I don't, but I try. The world just looks better if you're feeling positive. More opportunities. I just gotta be patient. Though I do know that can't always happen for everyone all the time. I'm just trying to stay positive :)
             I've liked this song for a really long time.

                                                                          INDICA

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Obsessive

            There's been new and recent developments in my life. Good ones. My little world of chaos has quieted down. Maybe 2016 will be my year. I'm really grateful for the things that have cleared up in my life. Nevertheless there's a lot of thoughts floating around in my and I just can't get them to stop. I call it my obsessive trait and I'm trying to control it.
             The deal is I'm getting caught up on my life and doing good things, but I'm unnecessarily stressing myself out about it. It's just all in my head. Anyway be quiet head, and goodnight guys--
                                                                                           INDICA
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I Love It (I Love This Song)

         I really really love this song. There's not a word of this song I don't agree with. I also love the video. I love the the "really don't care part". I need a quite a bit more of that in my life. LOL
         This has been a kinda rough Monday, but I'm trying to be happy. I went to the library today and got some books, I'm reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown (I always love Dan Brown books), I also bought some cool purple ponytails, and some candy. So I guess I can say my day is going pretty good, even though it's been a bit stressful.
          So I hope you guys are having a great Monday--
                                                                                                   INDICA

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P.S. Welcome to the first of 'Music Monday's'.

Things To Come

            So it's been a little over a month since I quit my job, and I feel a lot better. Not perfect, but a lot better. It took about 4 or 5 days, but after that I started feeling more like myself. That's slowly escalated until I feel better than I've felt in a long time. Life's not with out it's issues though and the past few weeks have been rough.
            I still feel so thankful for feeling good and for all the stuff that's happening including getting caught up on my social media. I know it's hard, but I don't ever want to stop doing it. It's part of my journey and what I want to do with my life. I just need to do it!
            I really like this time of year even though the days are shorter because of Christmas, my birthday, etc. I ordered a phone on black Friday. Surprisingly enough I'm turning 19 and I've never had a cell phone before. I look forward to that.
          By Dec. 9th I'll have a letter saying whether I get to go to school or not. I have a really good feeling. Keep your fingers crossed.
          I'll be 19 on the 17th and  I feel really good about things most days. I watch a lot of TV, but I am trying to do stuff, and I look forward to all the things to come this year. 👍 

                                                                                                                   INDICA
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Oogum Boogum

          Well I'm all alone. I'm not technically but it feels that way. The funny thing is that I love to feel alone. I guess this time it's just not the same way. I quit my job. Honestly it was for the best. It just wasn't a good life choice to work there.
         My head feels like it's in a mush and in a muddle. I just can't have one straight thought. My only straight thought being I don't like this. I don't like not working, I don't like the way my life is going. I know what I want, I just don't know which way I wanna do it. I don't know any answers to any questions right now. I guess I just don't feel good. I hope the feeling passes. I know it will, but I think it's about time for me to make my way. Patience never was my strong point. Right now I just don't got any of the answers.
        I'm gonna start having "Music Mondays". Putting my favorite song into a blog and telling you why I like it. My first favorite song is "The Oogum Boogum Song" by Brenton Wood. I love that song. I just love the compliments he paid the girl. I don't even know if a girl existed. LOL
        So Long--
                                                                                                   

                                                                                           
                                                                                             INDICA
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